kalian?

Siapa sih kalian?
Kalian tau apa tentang saya?
karena mulut-mulut berbicara tanpa mengetahui apa yang sebenarnya, sekarang saya harus menerima dampaknya.

Hebat sekali.
Tidak semua tapi beberapa dari kalian.

Kenapa mulut kalian begitu jahat?
sampai-sampai kalian saling menghasut satu sama lain.


Kenapa kalian merendahkan saya si anggota "kaum wanita" dengan begitu mudahnya?
Apa kalian lupa kalau tulang rusuk kalian itu kurang satu, siapa yang bisa melengkapi itu kalau bukan saya (wanita)?
Apa kalian tidak tahu, martabat kalian kelak ada pada isteri-isteri kalian?
Lalu kenapa kalian bisa dengan mudah merendahkan saya dan teman-teman wanita saya?



Hati-hati dengan mulut kalian yang jahat itu,
jika Tuhan murka, jangan kalian tanyakan seberapa dahsyat hukumanNya.

Tell me how does it feel,

to see some other girls falling in love with the person you love? 

sometimes the world can be so mean to you

Hati-hati,

kita tidak pernah tau apa yang akan terjadi kepada kita setelah ini.

Terkadang hidupmu selama bertahun-tahun terasa baik-baik saja, semua bahagia, sampai-sampai kamu lupa sama yang Maha Menciptakan Kebahagiaan.

3 tahun aku lalai.

Dan ternyata seperti ini pada akhirnya.

The feelings, when you want something but the world, even God's decision is against you.

Asking for forgiveness to Him is all you can do, 

but think! its just unfair that you forgot Him for 3 years and now you asked Him to be good for you in a night. 

This is why, you are a lessons to me, from now on.  

the Buterfly

It is beautiful to see you grew up until now,
I feel glad that you could be the person who you always wanted to be.


Tho, in the end I only receive "thank you" and you'd choose to walk away.
I'll be all good.


Its time to let the butterfly fly, after taking care of a chrysalis.

hello people,

its been a while that i stop to write. 

so lets start again, something that i actually really want to write since a long time ago but i can'f find the perfect wording.

this might seems a hyperbole writing, but it is actually something what i really feel and think about.

its been 2 years that i am whit this someone. 

at first it does not seems it can be as far as this. buttttt walaaa! this is my second years.

it feels perfect to be with this someone, i feel safe, comfortable, loved, i feel like im an important person. and something that i always feels is i feel like i am worthy. having kind of a really gentleman partner is such a girl's dream come true.

i don't really know how this someone can make me feel like this. but trust me, this thing feels awesome. it feels like completely perfect. you know, it seems crazy how can a person make you feel that you are perfect, you are someone who really worth it. it feels really amazing.

i think i just get truly in love with someone, pfffft. yea i guess so. 

and in a sudden all of my insecurities gone away,

he can truly love me for whoever i am, and i think i also need to do the same thing also. 

we dont talk about future, we just going through each of our day together, without planning for so much thing for the future that seem so cliche.

thankyou, thankyou for treating me like im a queen for these two years.

thank you for making me feel like i have the best gentleman in the world, 

we've learn a lot of things. going through so many barrier but you remain strong.

it is not me but its you, thanks for all of your effort that you gave to this relationship until this far.

i can only hope that you will never stop loving me, for whoever i am. 

you really meant the life to me ❤❤❤                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        

menurut saya ini lucu

berharap sempurna? none of it will.

terlalu banyak jika disebutkan apa saja......kekurangannya.

dia bukan tuhan, maka dari itu aku gila jika berharap dia sempurna.

tapi apa daya, hati selalu menjerit
entah itu hanya sebuah jeritan saja atau mungkin jeritan itu akan berubah menjadi sebuah pengharapan dan setelah itu pengharapan menjadi sebuah keinginan bahkan penuntutan.

iya, menjerit menginginkan kesempurnaan.


sebegini susahnya ternyata yg namanya bertahan

bertahan pada ketidaksempurnaan

padahal semua orang mau kesempurnaan, hahaha.

Aaaah

Oh ternyata dulu aku begitu...
Hm...


Hahaha
Geli sendiri rasanya kalo baca post-post lama.
Pffft, hahahaha.


Let it be a memories.
Let it be something to memorize.
Let it be...